Question of Integrity…Bring it

I’m a good person.  I’ve made my fair share of mistakes.  I’m not perfect by any means.  So I do think there are certain types of treatment that I do not deserve.  I’m not crazy and I’m not dangerous.  Everybody who knows me knows that.  If you doubt that ask anybody.  The mind sometimes has a tendency to over exagerate situations.  Especially when you are based off emotions and don’t want to see your own faults.

I’ve thought a lot about myself lately and believe me when I say I’ve learned from my mistakes and don’t plan to make them anymore.  You don’t have to believe no matter who you are.  Just don’t exagerate my shortcomings to cover your own.  It’s not fair.  So if you question my integrity.  Do it here, do it now.

My emotions have been run a little ragged and dragged through the mud recently.  I’ve broken down, I’ve cried and I’ve pleaded to be heard but got nothing but a cold shoulder.  Everything I loved for the last couple years is gone so I think the pain of loving and losing can be tolerated.  I’ve apologized for my mistakes and been told it didn’t mean anything.  I don’t get apologies from others about their shortcomings.  I get apologies said in a manner to make it sound likes its all my fault.  I am not responsible because people choose to run from their mistakes.  I have at least looked at mine and faced them.

Everybody deserves to be happy, and they should not have to lie and demean others for it.  Sometimes in life you have to accept that you can’t blame everybody else for your problems.  I can’t say it enough, I’m not perfect.  I never will be.  I’m human and sadly, fucking up is what we do best.  All we can do is correct it, learn from it and move on.  Whatever you may hear believe that my relationship didn’t end because I’m crazy or dangerous, that’s a vicious lie and ask anybody I know, doesn’t hold water.  It ended because of selfishness on both parts.  Nothing more.

So here I am, reborn under a flag of truth, and take all comers to question my integrity.  I have nothing left to hide.  Question me, here I am.

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